As addicts, we have experienced many of the same things in our lives. We have slept in similar ditches, woken up in the wrong beds, got caught up with the wrong people, and done a million things we cannot remember, no matter how hard we try.
But, one of the things that many of us have tried to do is to quit. We have tried to change our lives. We have tried to please loved ones and put the bottle down for a while. We’ve thrown the pipe away, just to keep the one we love. We have gone to rehab, and we have gone again, instead of going to jail. We have even really tried.
And likewise, many of us have failed over and over again. I cannot tell you the number of promises I’ve made, and the number of times I have quit, and was 100% sincere in my efforts. I fought hard to keep it straight.
But, that thing happens. You know what I mean. One of those buttons gets pushed, which works to draw you back in. It could be an old friend who pops up at the wrong time. It could be a bad day at work. It could be a happy holiday. It could be any number of things. But, you are struggling to resist and maybe giving in.
Jesus said “When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walks through dry places, seeking rest, and finds none. Then he says, I will return into my house from whence I came out; and when he is come, he finds it empty, swept, and garnished. Then goes he, and takes with himself seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter in and dwell there: and the last state of that man is worse than the first. Even so shall it be also unto this wicked generation.” —Matt 12:43-45
When we get clean or free from a wicked or twisted spirit or demon, and we give in and let it come back, we become worse than we were before. We quit drinking or using and if we pick it up again, we suck it down like candy, and we run after it, like mad. We might even branch out and try other things, in new places. We dive off the deep end. Not only that, but a happy drunk, might become an angry drunk. We might start stealing to provide for our lifestyle. We might cheat or hurt our loved ones. The spirit that left, brings 7 more back with it. This will manifest in our lives, in many ways.
Normally, we quit using, or living a jacked up life, because God has woke us up in some way. He shows us we need to get straight. It could be any number of things. Maybe we have a close call. Maybe we hit rock bottom or hurt someone we love. Then, we realize we have a problem and need to quit what we are doing. This is God calling us to Himself. He wants us to be saved.
So, maybe we pray to receive Christ, or maybe we just decide to quit using and to change our lives. We feel good, about ourselves, and what is happening. We look good. We are eating right, and we are working or trying to work. Our families are happy with us, and people are noticing.
But if a few months later, we decide to have that drink, 7 demons come into us, and we are worse than we ever were. And when I say demons, I mean literal demons. You might have been a drunk before, but now you are even worse. You get in fights all the time. Steal booze, bum money, and have sex with anything that shakes a little. You can call it what you will, but I call it demons, because things happen outside of your body, which is not caused by you. Temptations, come that you have no control over. It has to be something else guiding it.
So, what’s the answer? The answer is to turn to God. And let Him make you free. He is the only answer. With God, ALL things are possible. Believe it. It doesn’t matter how many times, you fail. It doesn’t matter what your preacher says. Run to God and ask Him to save you. Confess Jesus as your Lord, and ask Him to heal you. Not, once, but every time, in every way. Keep turning to Him, every time, until it makes you sick, then keep turning to Him, cause He loves you, and He is working. You did not become a mess over night, and it will take time to get you totally out. Trust Him, He is working.
When you confess your sins to God, you will find yourself doing them less and less. As time goes on, you’ll find that you fail less and less, never give up. Ask God to forgive you, and keep living life. I have failed so many times, that I cannot understand why God, stays with me. But, He does. He keeps working, and blessing me. He keeps guiding me, and protecting me. I do not deserve it. That is His grace.
I am not saying life will be rosy. I had to go to prison to finally get broken of the demons that ruled my life. But, when I finally sat down and listened, God was able to work and speak to me. When you ask Him to save you, it happens instantly. But, then He works to remove things throughout our lives. Some go quicker than others. I have things I still struggle with. But, listen to God, and do the things He leads you to do. You will see miracles.